i love you

Somehow, i've become immune to how i feel about you..

it's just blank..

like i'm getting used to you not being around which feels so wrong.

i can't say i don't miss you coz that would be a lie.

i know i do but it's just like a bad habit of forgetting that i do?

i hate myself for not being the caring one but i can't help being me.

i can't be bothered bout other ppl coz i will feel that i'm being unfair to you.

guilty for having all the pleasure while you... ='(

it's not fair for you to go through what u HAD to.

im really thankful to you

for being the pretty, smart and an admirable person that u are..

u might not know this but i do think about you when i laugh, when i eat, when i cry.

i miss fighting, shouting, bitching and whatever that we do together..

somehow i really hope i could join u there next year.. but.. you know me..

me study?! hah! i didn't ans to bak qns again when he asked..

somehow it's hard for me, but it's harder for you..

that's y i think being hermit-the-crab is a comfort..

i don't seem to enjoy socializing anymore..

and as kental as it sounds,

i prefer to hang out with my family more than my friends..

best friends, i hope u don't expect alot from me.( u know who you are, if u're reading that is)

i'm the biggest jerk best friend ever. im sorry, that's just me. i love you.

somehow, as close as you are with ur best friends, it's different when it's with you.

it's a relieve to know that u're enjoying all the concerts..

even tho i might get a bitch fit from hearing it..

well this time,

it's even worst than when u had ur first true love and soulmate,

it's even worst than when u went away for camp,

it's even worst than when we fight..

it felt like i lost you but i have you..

maybe i need to find myself for awhile.. =(

i miss my sister.

i miss ashika radiah.

as dramatic as it sounds, that is what i really feel.

U noe U love Me~!